ATTENTION! ANNOUNCEMENT TIME!

As you might have noticed, every month I honor a female superhero. First there was Supergirl then there was Rouge and now Batgirl. If you would like to see your favorite super woman as my background just comment with your favorite female superhuman! Or introduce me to more super women that aren't too mainstream and I'll probably write a blog in their honor.

Settling: How to Avoid it

A while back I wrote a blog about settling (Settling: Why Girls Settle and Why it's a Problem 2012) and now this blog is an extension of that one. As you might be able to tell I didn't add "part 2" or add part to the title simply because it's not a multiple part series. It is simply piggy backing off the first so I guess you can say that the first blog was the intro leading up to this one.
But any who, as you read in my first blog settling is a bad thing in more ways than one. First, you are more vulnerable to get hurt or played. Secondly, sometimes settling shows you don't have self-appreciation for yourself. Lastly, settling for less than you deserve waste your time and causes unnecessary turmoil. There are ways to avoid making the choice of settling.
For starters, make a list; I know it sounds stupid and cheesy but its better to visually see what you think you want and thinking hard about what you need. It is also a good idea to do this with a friend but if you are the type that needs silence to concentrate then go for it. Make sure that all the attributes and traits are achievable and realistic. So, don't write on your list "wants someone that can fly" we all know that is impossible. But on a more serious note don't write things like "someone that never gets angry at all"; to be honest people get angry some more frequent than others. That won't be a realistic trait because people show anger in different ways and sometimes you wouldn't even know they are anger unless they told you. Things like that are not good example of what could go on your list. Remember my list from the last blog? That is an example (maybe not a perfect one but it's a start) some of the things on my list were just preferences. On my list I had tall, I would like a man that is a minimum of 5'6 and a max of 6'4 but I won't not date a guy that's 5'5 with a great personality. I also had "prefer Caucasian men" yes I am more attracted to white men but that doesn't mean I'll never date a black man or a hispanic man. Its' good to have a preference but don't let that preference determine your entire decision. 
After creating that list, stick to it. Like on my list the very first item was articulate. For me, someone that knows how to talk correcting and pronounce words in the correct tense is a must and it's rather sexy. So, if some guy off the break, calls me "shorty" or "sweethawt" (that is the phonetic way some guys pronounce "sweetheart"), I have to immediately shut down and just give you the evil eye. That is part of the reason I don't really pursued or desired a boy from around my way. Most of them are obnoxious and immature. That should be the same persona you should have, that list is supposed to help you make the right decisions. A very good one I have on my list is "smart", ladies if you cannot hold a constructive, intelligent conversation with them they aren't worth your time. But, if you're into that kinda thing when your men are dumber than a brick; go for it. 
Lastly and the most important, ask God for guidance. We are only human and evidently are bound to fuck up, so why not put your trust in someone who is perfect and knows what is right for you. Prayer and trust is the key to finding your soulmate. With guidance and understanding from the holy spirit there is no telling what God could bless you with. He could take that list of yours and add things you didn't even think you needed or multiply the things you do want sevenfold. 
Now, I am not the expert matchmaker in Maryland or a married counselor but I know a little something about people and relationships. I am pretty sure you follow this criteria things might start looking up. Now I am not saying you do so and get marriage in 6 weeks but you'll stop settling for less and be happier.

Intro of this blog
http://aubrey-m-thoughts.blogspot.com/2012/05/settling-why-girls-settle-and-why-it.html

Why I love Sara Bareilles

I was in love..no captivated with Sara Bareilles since Love Song. For people that don't know the true meaning of that song, she basically shot a middle finger to her record label. They wanted her to write more songs about love and she responded with that love. "...I'm not gonna write you a love song/ 'cause you asked for it 'cause it/ 'cause you need one you see/ I'm not gonna write you a love song/ 'cause you tell me it's make or breaking this/ if you're on your way/I'm not gonna write you to

stay/All you have is leaving/I'm gonna need a better reason/ to write you a love song today..." Powerful words, words spoken by a true bad ass. That's when I fell in love.

She is bold, spunky and brass balls; qualities I admire in a person. She is not only a singer but a song writer and she has a brilliant mind. She covered a very mainstream Beyonce song "Single Ladies" (video is on my Twitter @_JustJillie) it was a great take on the Beyonce hit. She added this corky, light melody and a bouncy beat. She gave the song a funky alternative twisted. This artist is truly daring and inventive and that's why I love Sara Bareilles.

Dude Homegirl is Crazy!

I don't know why I attract so many goregous girls that are way out of my league. These girls are not only exotic but fucking crazy! This one Hawaiian girl (yes another Hawaiian) she started talking to me on this social network. She was pretty close to me so I entertained her for a little. The very first thing that come out of my mouth was "I have a boyfriend" she said that was fine she wanted to be friends. She was a lesbian of course and I thought she was alright. We hung out a couple weeks and she was mad cool.
After a while she got obsessive, she'd call me 4 in the morning, text me 30 times while I was at work and I think she was catching feelings. One afternoon she told me she liked me a lot and she wanted to be with me. I assured her that would never happen (most because I had a boyfriend and she was crazy).
There on out she kept calling and texting like a crazy person. Leaving weird text messages and "dropping by" randomly. She was crazy! Like she would say things like she loved me and she had to have me. At first I didn't think too much of it but then it became freaky. She'd call me crying asking why I don't want her and don't get me wrong she was pretty..she was just fucking crazy!
The reason I didn't want her was because I had a boyfriend that I love and she was crazy as fuck. I have enough problems as it is without her in my life so, I don't think she's worth the hassle. So, moral of the story sometimes something that looks good ain't good for you.

Am I Right or Am I Right?: About Amusement Park Visitors

Ok so I work at an amusement park and it is terrible. From rumbustious kids to loud obnoxious parents amusements park are crazy. I also noticed that people leave their brains right in the parking lot. Like I would be on the mic spieling "secure all loose articles" or "don't leave any loose articles on the platform" (most roller coaster stations are elevated platforms) and I'd probably say that six times in one setting. Yet and still there is always some idiot that leaves their shit on the platform or does exactly what I said not to do five seconds prior. Or I would say "hey don't lean on the air gates" and people just stare at me like I'm on crack.
That's not the only thing that bothers me, it's the parents. It's like when you tell them their kid isn't tall enough to ride it's like the beginning of World War 3. Like you measure their kid and you are 120% sure they are not tall enough but you measure them so you don't get fired it's like they are willing to loss a child for a 30second ride. Then it's the employee's fault that their kids can't ride, we don't create the rider requirements and restrictions.
One more thing, big people. I hate being the bearer of bad news when a larger person can't fit but think about it. A roller coaster or flat ride can only hold but so much weight, most coasters (I'm thinking all coasters) go faster with more weight on them. That is dangerous because sometimes the train will skip the breaks and could hurt someone. So imagine a 200lb person getting on the ride, all that weight could be very dangerous or a roller coaster that is only meant to go 75mph at the fastest. So anyways, (long sidebar) people get frustrated and get mad and try to sue the park because they are just big as fuck. Like seriously, this one lady tried to complain to my sup that I didn't try hard enough to squeeze her in the seat. Don't be a dumb ass, I am not supposed to jam you in a seat, either lose weight or try another ride. So am I right or am I right about amusement park visitors?     

Worse break-up

In October, it'll be one year since Ronnie and I broke up and to be honest I have never been happier. For one this guy was older than me and at a different place in his life (five years older). He was controlling and a complete asshole. Like he really broke up with me because I don't wear make-up every time I saw him. We never talked he was always "busy" and never had or made time for me. In the back of my mind I think he was just with me for the sex. 

But, the funny part about it was that after we broke up I felt relieved like a weight was lifted. That's when I knew I was gonna be OK and that he was a burden in my life. For some reason, it took me forever to let my guard down. I felt like the first two or three months Dustin and I were talking he paid for all the insecurities and fears I had because of Ronnie. You know what is double crazy, I don't hate him! I love him (not the same way I used to) I am not in love with him I love him as a person and God would want me to love the ones that trespass against. I always hope that he found what he was looking for and wished him the best. Granted, I don't talk to him anymore or seen him since we broke up but, I don't hate him.

If he was reading this I just want to thank him for pushing me closer to an amazing guy that loves me for me and someone that isn't as shallow as he was. The moral of the story, some break ups seem bad at first but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.

My Better Half (My Missing Link Found!)

Dude! This is an accurate depiction of us!

I am head over heels in love with my boyfriend. For my new readers I will talk a lot about my amazing boyfriend because he deserved to be hyped up. I'm telling you this guy is more perfect than bacon more pure than spring filtered water and sweet like honey. Don't get me wrong he isn't a softy, he's tough as nails and the heart of a fighter. He is so genuine, kindhearted and just makes me feel like a queen (cause hey, queens can only marry kings, right?).
My baby spoils me (yeah he spoils me rotten) it to the point he doesn't want me to pay when we go out. I love him so much he is everything I need and then some. I would be honored if Dustin (my boyfriend) took my hand in marriage. On the contrary, he has his flaws (I am not gonna broadcast them) but, he is as amazing and great as they come these days. And the cherry on top is that he's blonde hair/blue eyes (well I prefer green but hey). He is so perfect for me, perfectly imperfect for me and no one else. I love my boyfriend and he makes happy that's all matters.
This boy makes me swoon! Every time I see him I get butterflies and every time he kisses me, my knee get weak. Good grief and every time he looks at me my heart melts. I am just sprung I'm in love. For me I am never the first to admit or say that I am in love but I love that boy.

Lover's quarrel

This is a poem I wrote a couple weeks ago after I saw my boyfriend. I don't know why but he gives me inspiration to write again. This is the first time I have ever shared my poems with the public and the first time in 5 years I have written anything in a while.


Lovers quarrel to show love
To make love
Or rise above


Our lover's war might start
In an all out brawl
But resolve in a lover's lust
Yelling and hollering
What kind of noise that is so
Bothersome
Kicking and resisting
Biting and punching


Only the ones we love endure pain
The ones we love endure the most
Pain in some ways


Our lovers spat
Becomes a lover's pact
We kiss and make up
Sometimes even touch and
Make love
Forceful and rough
Loud moans and even screams
Forceful language
Pulling and grabbing
Slapping and spanking


Yes we have our
Lover's quarrels
But we also have our
Lover's romance