I Feel Like We're Married!

Now this isn't a bashing session but I feel as though my boyfriend and I are married. Like we argue every chance we get. I know we are well passed the cupcake phase, but we also love like one. We are commited and we just don't have eyes for anyone else. Like the other night we were talking baby names (yeahh that commited) and just love the same things and we talk a lot about the future. We have our ups and downs but I won't want to fuss with or be with anyone else. Surprisingly, we are very responsible for our ages (18 and 19 year olds) we both work and looking for a second job. Hopefully, one day that boy puts a rock on my left hand because I love him and I wouldn't want to be with anyone besides him. If he took my hand in marriage I'd be one of the luckiest girl in the world maybe even the luckiest. I know girls my age really don't wish for things like that but, I know he is my soulmate and we were meant for each other. He is amazing and want him to be mine always and forever.

Scary Movies

I was recently asked the question: "Do you like scary movies" my initial reaction was scary movies really aren't scary. But seriously think about, the only true scary movies of our generation were probably: Saw (trilogy), Final Destination (trilogy), Misery, Friday the 13th (trilogy), Nightmare on Elm Street (trilogy) maybe Resident Evil, Halloween and probably The Roommate (PROBABLY! I truly didn't think it was scary it was more comical than anything). 
Like I said, most scary movies of our generation are funny and just plain dumb. Take Scream 4, that movie was stupid. Like seriously don't you just hate when that stupid blond is running and "all of a sudden" she trips and acts helpless not even moving to save her life, she lets the killer slash her. Another thing, when someone in the movie is home alone and hear a weird sound they always gotta "check it out" or ask "who's there" or "Hello?" You dumb bitch, you better run outside and call the cops on your cell phone. Shit, if that were me I'd ask no questions get a baseball bat or a gun, shoot the fucker in the knee or clock him unconscious, run out the house and call the police. But, hey, who am I; a sensible girl that knows how to handle her. One more thing, the killer is in clear view and they have amble time to get away, come up with a plan or get help and possibly kill the killer. But noooooo, the stupid whore screams and cries or does something stupid! Scary movies either totally annoy me, baffle me, make me chuckle or just make me question the people that make these movies.   

Don't Hate the Player Hate the Game: The World of Dating (Part 3)

We all know we aim to please when we first meet new people. The first impression means everything so, we occasionally send the "representative". Yes, the perfect person we make up in our heads and the person we think will win our love interest.
There is no clear-cut way to see through the "representative" ploy but you'll know when you see it. When I was younger (gosh I make it seem like I'm ancient) I was the master of the "representative" act.
I usually used alias and phony back-stories to impress girls I found interest in. Like this one girl I had a huge crush on a while back. Like seriously she was Hawaiian, long flowing hair, not too tall but then again not too short, some killer green (or were they hazel) eyes and a nice rack. Needless to say she was a hottie, she was also out of my league. I don't care how sweet I thought my game was I don't think I would have got her without some type of angle.
So, this bombshell was a friend (or co-worker) of my war vet best friend. So, I took it upon myself to introduce myself the one day she shows up at my best friend's condo. That day I told so many lies I started believing them myself. I told this girl my name was Cydni Fairwood and I was assistant director of some director that recently graduated from NYU and had a studio in Arlington.
Naturally, this girl brought my boogie story and became so engrossed in my line of work. So much so, in the next two weeks we were together she did some research. Yup, this player got caught in a lie and she from there on didn't want anything to do with me. I didn't blame her; if I were me I won't either. Pegging her for a fool and playing up her emotions. I'd be heat, the moral to the story is the "representative" causes confusion and trouble so, just be yourself and let the chips fall were they may.

Female Super-Heroes: Are They Sex Symbols?

Lately I've gotten very engrossed in heroes, mostly because I wrote a term paper on Greek and American Comic heroes. 
I am beginning to see that most (and I do say most) female super-heroes are seen as sex symbols. If you just Google the phrase "super girl" you would get some provocative images. It's like women can't be equal to men they are just objects. Just look at the way most artist draw these characters. Enlarged breasts, extremely short skirts or skin tight bodysuits and occasionally cut off tees. But think about it; the people that make these comic are men and the primary audience are men. So, it's a given that these people want to appeal more to the male population of ages twelve through twenty-one. But what does that say about women? Are we just trophies or objects of desire? Are we simply here to please men and merely sex slaves? It's a double standard and it's as if women are the second sex even in the comic book world.
On the contrary, these writers do a great job at making these female super-heroes role models to the younger generation. I know when I was younger I wanted to be just like Super-Girl or Wonder Woman. They are instilled with good values, smart, handy and of course strong. Their presentation could be less revealing but, the lessons and morals are received. I'm just saying can they be both role models and sex symbols? Or is it just some wacky thought I just throwing out there?

My best friend Sonic

Ever since I was able to hold a game controller, Sonic, the hedgehog was "my best friend". Like it sounds crazy but, he has always been there for me. From the humble age of five to now, Sonic game never let me down. On those rainy days, pure boredom and even to get my mind off certain situations. I literally grew up loving Sonic and looked forward to the next game. I have no clue why these Sonic games are so addictive but they are! It's just something about those golden rings and that weird sound you get when you jump. Why is it that I can spent hours staring at a TV screen doing the same task over and over? Who knows but all I know is I'm a fan for life and the Sonic trilogy is for serious gamers.

For You

When I wrote this I wasn't thinking about whom was reading this
When I wrote this I wasn't thinking about how people would see me
When I wrote this I thought of your eyes
The way you run your fingers through your hair
How you look at me
The way you hold me close
I was thinking about your arms
Your touch
The way our noses rub together when we kiss
I was thinking about you and all your bloody glory
Just you

My Lesbian Crush on Fiona Apple

I love Fiona Apple and her music so much I categorize it as a lesbian love affair. Her lyrics are like my thoughts in song and rhythmic form. "Paper bag" is one of my all time favorites: "I've got to fold because these hands are too shaky to hold" or "I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up" come one that has Fiona Apple written all over it!
But the song I truly fell in love with was "Criminal". Good grief, that girl can blow! She has serious pipes and the lyrics again: "And I need to be redeemed to the one I've sinned against" and "Help me but don't tell me to deny it." In my opinion she created her own genre.
She is also a bad ass like she released an album in '95, the title of the album was like 23 letters long. Seriously she is an icon and she is so twisted; crazy. "Fast As You Can" the craziest song I've heard from her. "Sleep to Dream" is a classical "You say love is a hell you can not bear/ And say gimme mine back and go there/ For all I care." I love it, she is such a creep and she is so broken. We can all relate to her in some way because she is such a crazy and says thing that most people wouldn't. She was the bad ass of the 90's I hope she is still making music because she is amazing.